Well, it looks like it's time to reset the clock. Rather than this being my blog about how my life is getting back to normal one year (and counting) on from the start of my chemo adventure, I'm about to start chemo again!!! Can't believe I've got to go through it all again!!!
There appears to be a secondary tumour on my liver so I've got to get that sorted and hope that there will not be any more metasticies (sp?). These 12 weeks of chemo will be pre op and then it's a case of having the same again post op!!! It's the same drugs as last time so at least I know what I'm in for. But oh god, I know what I'm in for!!! Not sure how I can get through this again but I am really really hoping to do it differently this time!
This time I am really going to try to keep more active as well as eat more healthily. I think that piling on more weight will not help me at all. I need to try and get through all this as best I can - I can't spend another 9 months like I did last time.
I am getting a PIC line this time so the challenge is going to be not fucking that up and having to get it repeatedly redone but the luck I have with my veins, that's what I'm dreading at the moment. I'm also not looking forward to loosing my independence again. When will my life be my own again???!!! I just can't see the silver lining this time around. Maybe I'll just have to be satisfied with finally getting around to watching the Lost box set!!
Anyway, mustn't grumble and have to keep the positive attitude going.
Signing off,
Here we go again!!! Xxxxx
